Walk Through The Hurt and The Pain - Not As We, As Me

Alanis Morissette - Not As We

Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain

Unsure unconvincing
This faint and shaky hour

Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense for now
I'm faking it 'til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as i
And not as we

Gun shy and quivering
Timid without a hand

Feign brave with steel intent
little and hardly here

Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
with not much making sense just yet
I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as i
And not as we

Eyes wet toward
Wide open frayed
If God's taking bets
I pray He wants to lose

Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense just yet
I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as I
And not as we

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These lyrics means so very much to me, especially now that I'm recovering from neck surgery. I have started over so many times in my life drifting from bad memories to present and not making sense at all. I have been haunted from the past, "AS WE" resembles that dark child for me, as you can see in the video she is stroking herself this symbolizes the dark child. I'm not sure how many times I've been faced with dreadful thoughts and pains that no human being should have to go through. I never truly saw myself as a victim or martyr I felt like a Warrior or a Survivor. Many times I was lost, but God always FOUND ME, or should I say I found GOD AGAIN, and AGAIN.

You can't run from pain, you have to face it head on and walk through it. Oh my, how long has it taken me to realize this? GOD is the only ONE who has shown me this, but I'm grateful God sends us these wonderful people called HUMAN ANGELS. My human angel is my husband who has stood by my side through the trials and the tribulations, the highs and the lows, the sadness and the happiness. He made me realize I have to FACE it and he was right there with me holding my hand and God was holding the other one.
I have so much gratitude for MY LIFE exactly where I AM. God knows our hearts and he knows them so well.

Letter To GOD

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 The Road of the less Traveled is the path I chose for most of my life, God has guided me on this same road to the Journey of my Creative Mind where I meet many travelers today and every day. In the past when I was traveling that old road I plowed down way too many fields and made my own road. Even on that old road I found love, faith, and my holy spirit. Today I'm one with my maker and my journey. The difference now is Jesus is my Best Friend, not the Holier than though man I thought he was.

 There were many battles on my old road but Jesus held my hand even when I was in doubt. He showed me the wonders of nature and the lights of the Sun. I was such a wanderer in my past life and I studied people and their behavior, mocking it at times. That old saying Fake it Till You Make It, well that was me. All the while My rose colored glasses didn't allow me to see the REAL TRUTH. Today I see that truth ever so clearly. I chose today to love and love abundantly who I am and who you are. I always believed in myself but I wasn't quite sure why I did. God made me to LOVE and share my gifts with the world. I have so much talent but I didn't truly believe in me as much as I do today.

  Today I chose not to RUN, I've traded in my track shoes for a DREAM that I'm living ever single day of my life. God may not give you exactly what you think you need but He will give to you in so many ways. God is running his fingers on my heart as if he were FINGER PAINTING IT.

Not to God: Thank you for carrying me, holding my HAND, brushing the hair away from my face, holding me tightly through my nightmares, sitting with me on the Train, watching me grow, and most of all Thank you for the Abundant LOVE you show me every day, you are my BEST FRIEND